During the winter of 2016, after twenty years of healing and awakening on my spiritual journey, I decided to embark on a 40-day journey to free myself from a deep-rooted struggle and inner war going on within myself about my body image and food. I experienced peace and joy in so many other areas of my life; my relationships, my work, my purpose and even my finances, but I was constantly haunted by my daily thoughts focused on my obsession around my body, food and comparing myself to others. I realized that if we have 60,000 thoughts drifting through our minds daily, then 40,000 of my thoughts were focused on this repetitive, unhealthy inner dialogue and I declared, with exhaustion, that I was done! I wanted to be freed once and for all.
As a spiritual being who is passionate about using the power of angels, spirit guides and the divine, I knew what I needed to do. I had to commit and go within and draw forth my answers. Many ancient spiritual texts describe a 40-day process as a period of time to prepare for a higher spiritual endeavor or a necessary time to make or break a habit for everlasting change. I knew after all these years of healing and transformation that if I wanted to change a pattern that goes way back, I needed to heal from within, get in touch with my beliefs, my thoughts and my feelings, both conscious and subconscious, and call in the support, grace and wisdom of the divine.
So, I wrote, prayed and meditated for 40 days straight. Allowing myself to be free to write from the depths of my being, safely knowing, that no one would read my words, thoughts or feelings, I was able to be raw, real and vulnerable on every level. No more hiding or denying or pretending – it was time to explore, to be open and to trust I could handle whatever came to the surface. This “being real and honest” permitted my authentic self to emerge and as this true self came to light, I was shown a path to deep healing and transformation. I dialoged with my soul about my body and food for days, as the truth of my inner turmoil and past experiences created a story of who I became and who I thought myself to be.
On Day 14, my journey took an unexpected turn and my prayers and vulnerability started to unveil the root cause and the True Healing that needed to take place so I could finally be free and at peace. The earthly me thought my struggle was with my body and food, but the root cause of my suffering and confusion was revealed to me. As the truth surfaced, a divine miracle occurred. I was graced with divine support and guidance and my prayer for peace was being answered. What unfolded during this journey was beyond anything I could have ever imagined.
I completed the 40-Day journey on January 15th, 2016. I look back now and realize that this journey birthed an inner healing and awakening in me that eventually rippled into a transformation of my mind, body and spirit over the following six months. I felt completely different about my body and food and I felt liberated from my past tortures and obsessions. I had entered a state of flow in my life I trusted and felt one with.
I have shared these journeys with a few of my soul friends who have struggled with their own forms of obsessions and dis-ease; aging, too thin, too heavy, illness, disabilities, and some had no perceived physical flaws but their inner dialog and their perception about themselves was in conflict and therefore they were not at peace. And even though they each had their own unique struggles and past history, they all experienced the 40 day journey, dialogued with the divine, and committed to the journey, and they each received exactly what they needed for their own healing and transformation.
During this past year, I have authored two additional 40-Day Journeys. Today, thousands of my clients, friends and family members have experienced the power of committing to this 40-day process to initiate healing, deep understanding and lasting miracles. Although I wrote this journey originally for myself as a divine prayer to guide me through my own inner darkness back to the light, it’s time to share this journey with you and to all who are called. I invite you to take a 40 day journey so you can awaken and re-discover the peace, freedom and joy that are already within you and return home to the magnificence of your being. A willingness to share your naked, exposed truth will reveal a path to profound healing, awakening, and a deeper understanding of how magnificent you truly are.